The REAL To-Do List

• sing.
• smile at strangers.
• keep learning.
• notice kindness.
• eat ice cream.
• hope.
• count your blessings.
• laugh.
• love.
• love some more.
  

Every Woman...

Through My Eyes

I love what I see in the world around me. I'm not always a positive person and I can jump to the worst conclusion ever when it concerns me, but for the rest of the world I usually see the best in someone, even if that is not their true way.

I truly believe that most people are good at heart and honest. There are some that I know cant always tell you the truth and that's okay with me, cause sometimes it doesn't really matter. What does matter is that they are true to themselves and can be "real" with you when you talk to them.

Perhaps I only see what I want to see, but I like it that way. I converse with many different people in many different forms everyday of my life and I enjoy all of them. Every single one of them has a beautiful soul in my eyes.

Remembering Virginia Tech... WE ARE HOOKIES!

Native American Prayer

I give you this one thought to keep -
I am with you still - I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning's hush
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not think of me as gone -
I am with you still - in each new dawn.

~'Author unknown'

GOD'S GARDEN

God made a beatous garden
With lovely flowers strown,
But one straight, narrow pathway
That was not overgrown.
And to this beauteous garden
He brought mankind to live,
And said: "To you, my children,
These lovely flowers I give.
Prune ye my vines and fig trees,
With care my flowerets tend,
But keep the pathway open
Your home is at the end."

Then came another master,
Who did not love mankind,
And planted on the pathway
Gold flowers for them to find.
And mankind saw the bright flowers,
That, glitt'ring in the sun,
Quite hid the thorns of av'rice
That poison blood and bone;
And far off many wandered,
And when life's night came on,
They still were seeking gold flowers,
Lost, helpless and alone.

O, cease to heed the glamour
That blinds your foolish eyes,
Look upward to the glitter
Of stars in God's clear skies.
Their ways are pure and harmless
And will not lead astray,
Bid aid your erring footsteps
To keep the narrow way.
And when the sun shines brightly
Tend flowers that God has given
And keep the pathway open
That leads you on to heaven.

~Robert Frost

Twitter/Blip Play List

I asked my twitter and blip FRIENDS to give me one good song to put on a play list for my iPod. I ended up with more than I expected. Some gave me one, some gave more and some of them told me I HAD to have a song on my iPod.
So here is PART of the list (this thing is still growing) ....

Unnatural Progression – Dan Mangan
True – Ryan Cabrera
Sweet and Low – Augustana
Believe – Staind
Chicago - Sufjan Stevens
Sugar – Dan Wilson
The Hole In Me – Blackfield
Half Hearted Apology – Dean Fields
Silent Lucidity – Queensryche
Just Friends – Gavin DeGraw
Counting to 100 - Matt Wertz
Element – Moses Mayfield
Closer -Joshua Radin
Closing Time - Semisonic
What Would I Do - Van Morrison
Nellie the elephant - The Toy Dolls
Cigarettes and Alcohol - Oasis
The Sun -Mirah
Someday You Will Be Loved - Death Cab For Cutie
Lucky - Seven Mary Three
Perfect Memory -Remy Zero
Everybodys Gotta Learn Sometime - Beck
Through Glass - Stone Sour
Your Heart Is an Empty Room - Death Cab For Cutie
Heaven Beside You - Alice in Chains
More Time - NeedtoBreathe
I Know the Reason - Carbon Leaf
Natural Mood - Jubeus
Disappear - Dream Theater
Harrowdown Hill - Thom Yorke
Every Little Thing - Dishwalla
Vienna - The Fray
Broken Road - 12 Stones
Don't I Hold You - Wheat
Plus - Stone Temple Pilots
Halo - Beyonce'
The Reason - Hoobastank
If You Leave - OMD
Satellites - Cherry Monroe
The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New
36-24-36 - Depeche Mode
Be Safe - The Cribs
Dreaming of You - The Coral
Lovesong - The Cure
Delicate - Damien Rice
Thou Shalt Always Kill - Dan Le Sac
White Winter Hymnal - Fleet Foxes
Go - Hanson
Forget Her - Jeff Buckley
Little Wing - Jimi Hendrix
Big Balls - AC/DC
A Kind of Aching - John Howard
Blue on Black - Kenny Wayne Shepherd
Flume - Bon Iver
A Smile That Explodes - Joseph Arthur
She Moves In Her Own Way - The Kooks
Nobody Knows - P!nk
Hold You In My Arms - Ray LaMontagne
Breathe Me - Sia
Disarm - Smashing Pumpkins
Crazy Love - Van Morrison
At My Most Beautiful - R.E.M.
You Do Something To Me - Paul Weller
Home To Me - Josh Kelley
Morning Lullabies - Ingrid Michaelson
The Light - Mason Jennings
All We Are - Matt Nathanson
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
Just Dance - Lady GaGa
Sex on Fire - Kings of Leon
Robot Timberwolves - 100 Monkeys
Personal Jesus - Depeche Mode


If you read this and you gave me a song....THANKS....you know who you are :-)

today sucked....

had another one of those days. they are few and far between and I am thankful for that. If I had to feel this way everyday I don't think I would make it. The day was bad, but nothing unmanageable. But at some point something broke, dont know what caused it at all and that scares me. When it went downhill it was all I could do not to break down and cry. Days like today are days when I feel broken, where everything hurts to the point that its hard to breath. I would rather have every bone in my body broken and that pain over this kind of pain. I shouldn't feel this way ever, there is no real reason for it, but I do.

It's that feeling you get when you have had your heart broken, had someone close to you die, and lost everything you have all wrapped up into one. I hate feeling this bad about myself, it makes me feel worthless and for someone like me that is the worst thing ever.

I dont have to have someone watching over me to make me feel like I'm not doing my best, I am my own worst critic. years of being told that I was never good enough at something, that I would never finish something I started, that I was never pretty enough have worn me down. I think for everyday I do get to feel good this one day takes it all away.

It sucks to have one day drain the life out of you.

Quite Sunshine

The sadness engulfs me
like a moonless night.
I fear the peaceful feeling
my mind desperately fights.
Alone in the silence
dreams have come to me.
Of love and life
a destiny I shall never see.